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- teenagers are often great writers. it's a sense of wonder thing. For me, a fancy education and too many embarrassments have created an obsession fixation with logical consistency and factual accuracy. Pity. Once during some more precocious days X called me out on being full_of_shit. I was horrified: how could anyone not think that a fun hypothesis (and/or lie) is better than something as banal as a fucking fact. Fucking peasants. fucking academic peasants.
-->(reality is created as much as it is discovered. if anything, to stand at the head of a tradition, not at the tail of one. yea that's Ayn Rand--fuck you for rolling your eyes.)

- The insecure woman at the next table was talking about an orgy she had been to recently. More interestingly, abt. a bisexual NYU neuroscience prof she met there. Ooh la la. On a ship I'd be first mate, which has always been the case. Why-oh-why do I always look into the slop for role models. Because it takes courage to be in there and not with everyone else. Meh.

- honestly, i'm disgusted by the quotidian atheism of most of my peers. a refusal to ask *big* questions in anything more than *scientific* ways (conveniently handed off to some eggheads somewhere). Like big bangs and the primordial soup explain everything there is to know about the universe--just like a person is nothing more than all his neural networks put together. Uh, no. Take communism: straight lines, no god, complete failure. A castle in the sky, drawn up for a world dismembered of everything but the sum of its parts, if even that--(capitalism is far more organic, and better). Religion is metaphor, fools. And a good vehicle towards higher understanding. Someone once said something about there being more things in heaven and earth than are dreamt of in your philosophy. Mmhm.
- Science is wonderful btw. But it generates provisional truths. Newton's universe reigned supreme until Einstein came along, and then quantum mechanics after that. F equals MA still works for the vast majority of cases here on earth but it's not an eternal truth. Science hasn't discovered any and it's all open to revision. To think otherwise is fatuous and destructive.